Thoughts & Plots

I was chatting with one of my online friends today who was disappointed that yesterday's blog didn't have an appropriate photo. He took it upon himself to provide said photo...and what a job he did. LOL, thank you, you rascal for finding something truly absurd to illustrate my point. YOU ROCK!! Thank you also for a most entertaining conversation today...and for reassuring me I'm not crazy or imagining things, or blowing it out of proportion.
So I did ok with my sensei's instruction today...if you don't count the above conversation. LOL. Malcolm's back prevented him from hopping on his Ducati and riding for 40 mins. to come and see me today, so I told him I'd keep a running tally...although I'll need a different reward than 60 big 0's...I don't wanna die. That wouldn't serve my nefarious plotting at all!!! What I am most proud of myself for today is that I held my ground with Mr. He called this morning, right on schedule, with the expected grievance that had been passed on to him by the toad that can't seem to leave my business alone and go play nice in the pond. So predictable. I told him very bluntly that I'm not compromising, or making concessions anymore for someone that has absolutely no meaning in my life except for being a nuissance. Like a yellowjacket. My life is mine to live, without hiding my shit from prying eyes, without worrying about offending the toad at every turn. I'm not forcing anyone to read this, they come to my page of their own free will. I'm not emailing and shoving it in her face. This is MY god-damned page, and as I've said before, I'm a real blogger, and I can write what ever the fuck I want to write. Even Mr will tell me that he supports my writing 100%, even when he doesn't necessarily like what he reads. For her to try and hold blame to me is so idiotic as to be laughable. STOP FUCKING READING, RETARD! LOL. Anywho, I also told Mr that he bears no culpability, no reason to bear guilt or blame because he is also not forcing her to read...she's doing it all by herself. Kinda like holding a lit match to your finger tip till it burns, and doing it over and over again...then trying to sue the match company for your own stupidity. I also told him I understood if it meant he had to leave the group. I won't bend on that issue because train wrecks don't support a harmonious environment. <<<POOF! BE GONE!!>>>
Our conversation got a little ugly, and tense. I thought perhaps that this might be the day we drew that line in the sand, the epiode that might have caused an irreparable rift. I underestimate him sometimes though, and it's all good. We have agreed, amicably at last, to disagree on the topic of the toad. I guess that's what having a BFF is all about.
Today gave me some time to also think about my new group, and expand my sense of excitemment about it. I'm seeing so many possibilities, and am working on accomplishing our first get-together. Thanks so damn much to Len & Julia...I LOVE YOU GUYS!! You provided me with 4 years of mentoring on how to have an amazing group. You guys are my highest aspiration.. I can only hope to achieve the excellence you have made your standard. And thank you too to my BFF because he spent energy today helping me contain my growing excitement and not make any stupid mistakes in my plotting stages. He was supportive, realistic, and excited for me. But he was always good like that when I'd take on something that was actually too much for me. Jeezusss, remember the flower conventions??? LOLOL!!!
So now Malcolm and I get to be ambassadors together, being lovers, hosts, and role models of swinging success stories. We already make an amazing swinging team....doing it with him has been the most fulfilling thing about the whole journey. He's so interactive, and present, and wonderful...and he feeds off of me the way I feed off of him. It's all only just beginning, isn't it so damn intoxicating?