Bored Rantings

Today, the walls felt like they were getting just a little too close. I knew I had reached the peak of my boredom when doing the dishes, washing the sink, and tidying the bedroom felt good. I invited company over, but of course, it didn't work out, and I was left listening to the minutes tick by, waiting for my daughter to get out of school. I dutifully did my online applications. Three of them today, catching up for the week. It seems foolish and futile to keep applying when the phone never rings. I'm up to 28 applications sent out in the last few weeks....hopefully my waning patience will pay off soon.
So I thought about Mr some. I miss my friend. Never mind the sex part...I miss the person I used to holla at, and share stuff with. He's called, and at least I get a laugh whenever I hear his new ringtone. "Dirge of the Dead". LOL, he got quiet and hissed "nice" at me when I told him. We talked some, mostly about "safe" topics. His daughter, his job. My search, my daughter. We exchanged a few barbs, rather mild, and laughed that he was the devil.
I had asked him some weeks ago whether I was the fire or the ice. I was fully prepared to be named the Ice. It's what had been flung at me in college..."ice queen". It's a hurtful kind of name, one that implies frigidness, an inability to feel, to love. An inability to share passion. I even prompted Mr when I asked him " Well, which one am I then...the ice?" He looked up from the computer screen, a bit startled then, rather taken aback. "My god no Dots, you are all fire." "Really?" I asked...it was my turn to be startled. "Why, because of my flaming temper?" LOL, well, everyone knows I have this HORRID temper. Mr won't come within 30 miles of me when he knows I'm good and pissed. Smart man. But to my surprise he answered "No! It's because you do that screaming thing, and sometimes when I wake at night, I can still hear your screams." Wow, it was a genuine feel good moment.....of course I'm convinced he told the other one a similar story.
Thankfully tomorrow I get some time away. I have some decisions to make, decisions that have to be made in his presence. We'll get that short bit of time tomorrow, and I hope to keep my temper firmly in control. I suppose if it gets too tense, I can always play his ringtone and get a laugh. LOL