Beautiful Day

Some days just stick out in your mind as being extraordinary. I had one of those days today. I started my day at 6 am, and for those that know me, understand what an ungodly hour that is for me. I'm SO not a morning person. But I got up, showered, tried to tame my now cowlick ridden mane into some kind of style, and got my daughter ready for school. What a great kid I have. She knew I had to be away this morning, so after we worked together to get her dressed and packed, she made sure to be on time for the bus and to school. Love you Jujubear! I got on the road and made my way to LL Bean, for an interview for a seasonal rehire position. The job search...I swear I've given up. So in order to get away from the 4 walls, I decided to go back to Bean's as sales. It was fun, pretty mindless, easy, and will occupy me while paying me marginally more than the unemployment office will. I did get the job, by the way, but won't be starting until November 3rd. So a couple more months of frolicking for me.
I was tired, when I got back home, but Malcolm called, to check up on me. He played hooky from work today, and I decided to help him out. Everyone should get to play hooky once in a while, and it's ever so much more fun with two. LOL I got to his house and it became another milestone in our relationship. Today was the day he introduced me to his family. And what a wonderful warm welcome I got. His mom was so sweet, and his daughter, home sick from school (although he and I both suspect it was another case of hooky), his daughter is just beautiful. So grown up and thinking she's ready to tackle the world. She'll have an amazing time of it, at least I hope so. We spent time talking about the little things, my looking through his jewelry box, him explaining his old photos and showing me who the people were. Baby pics of him and his kids, his sneaker collection, his bike...
I almost felt like crying for a bit. It was so amazing to not be on the outside looking in at his family. I LOVE being a real part of his life, it made me feel so loved and wanted. Especially knowing that he'd already talked to his family about me. I wasn't an unpleasant surprise, they'd already heard GOOD stories about me! He amazes me! We had to christen his bedroom, of course. LOL...just like two horny teenagers that can't help themselves even though their location is chancy...talk about the risk of getting caught! I for one am not really into getting caught having sex and being scolded for it, and the stipulation that we both had to be silent was a damper for both of us. If you take a screamer and a talker and you make them both shut up, LOL...you can imagine. I think a bit of leather to bite on might have made me feel better. No matter, it may have been subdued as far as our escapades go, but he's still the most amazing lover. He's so heartfelt and honest. And I know now, in my brain and heart...because his actions support his words that they are NOT just words. When he hammers into my brain that he loves me, when he shouts it into my mouth, and whispers it into my ear, I know he really really means it. We had our quiet time, the resting, rejuvenating, refreshing after time. The pillow talk time where we finished all the little ways of making love. And talking. And bonding. He's so easy to talk to, and he listens. His opinions always make me feel good inside, too. LOL, ever have a lover give you a heartfelt opinion and you get that sick little "oh my god he can't really believe that" feeling? Yeah, I had a few of those too, and they suck....so it's nice to be on the same page with someone. We even do that corny finish each others sentence thing. LOL
When hunger set in, we went to get sandwiches, and drove to the Eastern Prom to sit by the ocean and have lunch. I put all my myriad feelings about Eastern Prom away, and just enjoyed the day with him. It really is me and him now, no more ghosts, no more regrets, no more anger. I realized, watching the ships, and the gulls....that I am so content. When we are together, nothing else matters...it all just melts away. My biggest problem is that I have too much time on my hands and that's when the drama takes over my life again, and only because I'm so damn bored, it's a step up. LOL, no more. It's a new season, and the past is past. I'm sorry to let some parts of my life go, but the present is just too damn good to always be fretting over ANYTHING. So here is my new chapter, it's sunshine sparkling on the water, it's a warm hand sliding down my arm, it's a kiss on the back of my neck, and a full partner in my life for whatever I can need or imagine.
It's a beautiful day.