Under My Umbrella

Rihanna] You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining
I'm not much of a top 40 listener at this stage of my life. I like my stuff...like the Dead, like the Opera, like the Celtic stuff....like my Maxwell and Janet. I'm a Frank or BLM listener for the most part, and only turn it to the Q 97.9 if my daughter is fussing for it in the back seat of the car. But I caught this song a while ago...and it got on my damn nerves....the ella, ella, ella shit. LOL But the girl is just stunning, so beautiful, so sexy and lucious to look at that I was mesmerized. And all of a sudden it grew on me and I got past the ella ehh eh eh and heard the lyrics. "Said I'll always be your friend, ima stick it out till the end". Ouch.
We'd made those vows to each other once, that no matter what, no matter who, we'd always be friends. But I never realized just how hard sticking to a vow can be when you're mad, and hurt, and wanting to lash out. So, after some talk, and some thought, I've realized that I have been poking the bear again. I have a god given right to poke the bear...because lord knows he's poked this bear with his actions as well. But we all have DERRR moments. And the reality is that he's still my best friend, and I need to be happy for him, no matter my feelings on his choices. I've had other friends that make bad choices in life. I get exasperated, and roll my eyes, sometimes chuckle at their motivations. But I'm still their friend, and they, even after sighing at my own far fetched shenanigans, are still friends with me. My friends Jon & Ange...say my life is better than the Bold & the Beautiful, that my memoirs will sell millions. Jon sighs, gets in some "Get OUT"'s, some "ohhhh Dots", and then laughs and we move on to the next topic. Ange, well, she'll get the "For FUCK's SAKE!" in (my words, btw), and we'll have a great laugh over it.
So our reality is? It's that we've both moved on to other relationships now. I don't love him any less, that's what keeps me sharp, of course, and a little bitter. My new man is patient, he understands the depth of my feelings, and he's willing to work with me to get to the other side. Mr doesn't have that luxury, and I'm sorry. Love doesn't evaporate after 5 years, just a fact. If it did, it wasn't real to begin with, and no matter what happened, no matter how many shenanigans on both our parts, I don't doubt the genuine-ness of the feelings we both shared. Yes, I'm definitely liking my new relationship...it's a good fit so far, and he's a good guy. Mr has way more grace than I do in being able to be happy for me and wish me love and luck on the journey. So this blog is about returning the favor. I wish you love and luck on the journey. We are now both hurt, and both thinking about the past. It sucks, doesn't it? Be happy, Mr. I want you to be. I may not be able to be magnanimous with your choice of significant other because of the way it all came about, but for you I can be civil, and just focus on what I'm doing, hoping, in the back of my mind that you are getting what you need. I walked away from being your lover, and you agreed with my choice. I'm still your friend, gonna stick it out till the end.