Happiness is...

Decorum and class would dictate to me that I not take joy in someone else's misery. But that evil little part of myself can't help it. Malcolm and I have chuckled about it, with Malcolm more often than not defending him, saying I shouldn't be so hard on him. Malcolm says he recognizes the kind of woman he's gotten himself mixed up with, and that he wouldn't wish it on his worst enemy. LOL I would...they're perfect for each other. But as he sees my satisfaction growing, Mr seems to realize his error. His confessions are heartfelt, but the bed is made...and it wasn't by MY hand. Yes, we had a great thing, but boy did he fuck it up, and somethings just can't be undone, in the end. My decision to trust a new man, one who has only shown me respect and given me a great depth of pleasure changes my feelings alot, and then there is my favorite saying...one that I've shared with Mr in huge doses over the past couple of weeks..."Cheaters Cheat, Players Play, and Liars Lie". You can always count on them to come thru with what they do best. I feel bad that comparisons are being made in his relationship, and that they are falling short, in his eyes. I make my comparisons too....but they are fond comparisons, and usually come out on the positive side for both at this point. I found a great guy, and he hasn't let me down yet. Hasn't stood me up, hasn't ignored any of my calls ever, and has nothing but sweet compliments for me. Today...I "sounded like the sun in the middle of all that rain". Gotta love it. Moving on from relationships is hard, especially with five years of memories to trudge through. Somedays, like today, I remember every asshole thing he ever did. Other days, I remember how we used to have fun and frolic. But I'm making new memories that are outstanding, and I wish he could make some that made him happy for a change. Nobody can ever be me, and I'm glad...because they'd fuck it up. What will be interesting is that we are both going to events this weekend...albeit different ones. I had to actually recommend him a place to try, since they can't seem to friggin manage it on their own. I KNOW my weekend will be unbelievable, because I already have over half of my agenda set with my most beautiful and yummy J&A, and it's stunning. AND, there are still so many variables that I'm so excited to explore...Doc, the bouncing lady, mmmmm, Len, and a certain special man of mine that will try to ditch a graduation party. LOL. I can't even wait to see him get his groove on with my girl. YUM!
So Mr, I challenge you to make the best of your situation, and finagle a way to actually enjoy yourself at the party. Remember that being friendly and chatty actually helps, and watch your back. Me? It'll be another phenomenal night to remember...like NYE but better and way sexier. We'll compare notes the next day, deal? Ohh, and Cathy with Legs up to Heaven AND no gag reflex sends her love. MWAHAHAHA!