Entry for January 31, 2007

So, January is ended, and resolution to my aforementioned situation is concluded, to a semi happy turn of events. I've allowed myself a breath, some space, and can focus on what isn't right. I can't really affect the outcome, aside from walking away, and I still find myself reluctant to do it with finality. However, I do recognize that he is setting himself up to be able to get caught, and allow the situation to boil to a head without confronting the responsibility of actually being in the situation to begin with. That's kinda sucky, and smacks of fear, but in the end, not my call. My cowardice is staying.
Yeah, I love. Big deal, right? I'll revisit in a month and think about it some more. In the meantime, I'm using my breath, my space, to have fun with my friends.
You know...my job. I've never had to pop so many Advil a day for a very long time. I was broke when I owned the shop, but I didn't have to deal with super-freaks. Now, please understand that when I say superfreak, it's not in a trite or sexual context. I'm saying these people are so fucked up, so damn perturbed, that they make my life look lily white and squeaky clean. Now that takes some doing! I have never dealt with so many drama queens, and people needing to be co-dependent. I think I'm going to start leaving random slips of paper with self-help titles in people's mailboxes so that they can begin to recognize their afflictions. So, the role of a manager is to coach and council, right? Here is my coaching and counciling - I don't pay you freaks to have issues at work. And if you can't leave your issues at home, and come to work and actually work, then don't come to work at all. I won't miss you.
There's MY rant!

Entry for January 01, 2007

Wow, so all the holidays are done now, thank God. My New Year's party was memorable, to say the least. Sometimes it's hard to live with such unbelievable disappointment. Harder yet when it's doled out by someone you really care about. So, I'm not going to fixate on it because really I'm still too hurt and angry to say things that are not nasty. However, I am trying to remember that all things happen for a reason, hopefully a really good one. Maybe the flow of my life is just taking a new turn, and like last year when employment wise things looked a little bleak, great things transpired. I'm hoping that this new break will lead me to a brighter path. Cuz god knows right now I just feel sick inside....of course that could be from drinking myself into a stupor. LOL.
Keepin the faith,
Dot